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Thursday, August 13, 2009

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Second Chance
By Shinedown
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Today, vs. The Past

I don't believe anyone I've ever met will be reading this. It'd be interesting to know if anyone will be reading this at all.

So far, for the last four years, I've been yearning for a way to reach into the past, and pull it up here, or pull myself back there.

As a theory of consciousness goes, think about yourself. Knowing that we exist is what makes us alive. Being. When we die, we will feel no regret for the loss because we will no longer be self-aware. Our own cognition is our mortality. By the same token, what we perceive is our reality.

I've said all that to say this. You spend 16 hours awake and 8 hours sleeping. During those 8 hours do you exist less? Does the world fade? No. You exist within yourself. In a reality that you completely control, simply by being aware. If you dream that you die, you do not, simply because you cannot be aware of your own death. You cannot perceive an event that signifies the end of your perception. Dreams are as real as the world we live in. Real enough.

If this site, is a gateway to a dream, that I am very confused. It is merely a snippet of a reality that existed because of perception. A reality not unlike our own now, except a skate-backward in the four dimension and a handful of social fo-pa's (spelling for instance) and one adolescence ago.

Life's to short to be pissed off all the time. Hate, loss, it's all baggage. Time is linear, reality is not.


Sunday, January 01, 2006

Currently Listening
By the Way
By Red Hot Chili Peppers

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- Dosed

The ball dropped, it came down

Not to be seen, a single frown

Kissing, at midnight of our new year

Something beautiful, for all to revere

Takes no resolution, for this to work

I promise baby, it's not a quirk

I love you baby, this year and more

Forever baby, we'll always soar....

 

I love you, baby.
Happy New Year!

 

 


Saturday, November 19, 2005

History isn't always repeating

Fame isn't always fleeting
Death isn't always forever

and Won't doesn't always mean never

 

Think about it....

Goodbye.

 

 


Monday, November 14, 2005

I saw her staring, looking at that

I saw her wishing for a second

If only a second, to be in those shoes

Saw happiness fleeting to some other state

And it was almost a disgrace

Having been working and building for ages

And all swept away with one show of hands

And had I sat there I would have laughed

As the face she showed was something as startled

And imagined her holdings were less and together with others

And yet I stand here, still next to this

And it's fine, I'm fine with it

I don't hate it, I love it completely

Love's not the right word

Maybe, ya know, it's obvious


Sunday, November 13, 2005

C'mon let's fight, we'll make it, c'mon

We'll fight the world off c'mon

We can make it through it all

We may stumble, but will never fall

I'll take whatever I have to

Of course you already knew

I've gotten hit once or twice

But get up enough to suffice

Bring it on, I'll take it again

That's just the way it's always been

I know you think you're tough enough

But this uphill battle is awfully rough

Bring it on, I'll win again

That's just the way forever's been



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